Life is full of surprises. It is either
a good surprise or a bad one. But no matter what it is the only important is
that you are willing to accept it because you believe that everything happens
for a reason.
When I was waiting for the result I’m
not wishing that it would be either negative or positive. Yes, many youth
experiencing the same thing would want it negative but I was different. I don’t
know why there’s a part of me saying I hope it’s positive, that part of me is
excited to be a mom.
My friends expected me to cry when I
saw the pregnancy test in two lines but unexpectedly it was not tears that
showed but rather smiles drawn. They all got shocked when I didn't even cry a bit
but rather puzzled when it started. A friend told me maybe I was still in the
middle of shock but no, I was not. I am definitely happy and amaze that there’s
a life inside of me. I don’t see this kid inside of me as a problem for I see
this as a blessing, a hope and a reason to be better.
Shame is one thing that many people
would ignore. What will be the reaction of the people who knew me? What will my
family do the moment we confess my pregnancy? How can we do our responsibility?
Yes, I am somehow alarm of those things but whenever I think of this little
angel and the person who did this to me all my worries disappeared. I’m bearing
the child of the person I love so much and I trust him that he won’t let us
live in miserable.
Now you may say I’m deeply in love
with my boyfriend and I won’t deny that it is true. But the thing is I’m in love
to the extent that it gives me courage and positive outlook in life, not being
blind and stupid to tolerate his wrong doing. I’m certainly aware of my actions
and so thus with the decision I make. As what they say, love yourself first
before you love somebody else.
In life we may commit mistakes and
as long as there’s a way to make it right, do it. As what the saying goes, if
there’s a will, there’s a way but in my case, taking the responsibility is the
best thing I could do. So much in love brought me in this kind of situation
therefore I will show that love to make everybody understand not just me but
the both of us.
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